It's been a while since I've written anything. So I thought today would be a good time to give everyone an update on what's been going on with us. It's been an interesting couple of weeks to say the least.
In the career department, I am officially a customer care representative for a furniture store. This should work out well. When I worked for the pet store, I found myself bringing home every gimpy animal in the store. I don't see myself adopting a herd of sofas. Though I do spend time looking longingly at a gorgeous chair that would look amazing in my living room. First things first though, I need to paint the living room, and get new carpet. So any furniture buying is on hold for now. As for the job itself, I enjoy it. Really, you can't ask for more than that.
As far as dating, I'm good. I'm not going to lie, I'm lonely as hell. However I know what I want and I am not willing to settle. Though finding out that my ex-husband is planning on moving in with his new girlfriend set me back a notch. I had this moment of "How the hell does that jerk get to have someone and be happy, while I go to bed alone every night with my dogs?" But it is what it is. I know the right person is out there. Patience may be a virtue, but it is not my strongest asset. I keep telling myself that I am a strong capable woman, and I don't need anyone. But when you really want a hug from someone who isn't one of your children, it makes it hard. I really would like a partner, someone to spend time with. However, I can't shake the feeling that when it comes right down to it, men are all basically the same.
As far as the family goes, we made the decision to put my mother in a nursing home. A girl that I work with was talking about how strong I was, and that it was amazing that I can talk about it without breaking down. I pointed out that it's not like this was a snap decision. Mom has been going downhill fast for a very long time. I have grieved. I have cried. I still have moments where it hits me so hard that it feels like I took a lead pipe to the chest. But I have to be the adult now, and while it sucks, I don't really have much of a choice. We can't go on the way we have been and this is really the best decision for everyone.
So with that, dear readers I wrap up my update. Hope you are all doing well and holding out hope for an early spring.
Congrats on the job! I'm happy you like it. It make sit easier that way. Sorry to hear about your Mom, but as you said, it is probably best for the people involved. You can only do so much before your mind and body give out. Besides, as I see it, a home is not the worse thing. They can probably give her better care in the long run and you can visit without feeling like you are obligated to do everything. Your visits should be more enjoyable.
ReplyDeleteGrowing up does suck, but it has its perks, for sure! Glad you realize that and are not going to shirk your respinsibilities and continue being a child (like your ex?)
Hugs and hugs.